The first time I was introduced to Love

I want to stand out among the masses and be recognized as an individual. I want my speech, behaviour and actions to cause others to ponder 'why does she, how is it or what causes her to be who she is.' Maybe then one out of the many would approach me, and enquire of me. Maybe then I would be given the opportunity to testify about Jesus and the miraculous work He has and continues to do in my heart. Maybe then a seed would be planted in someones life for eternity - how lovely would it be if it sprouted and it's roots shot into the ground of that one person's heart. I can't live a life like everyone else. My reality has never looked more real. Everything in in my life has shifted completely. They say that the fear of God is the beginning of knowledge. It is because I fear God that I see the world under a much brighter light - any light at all is an improvement from the darkness I used to know. It's funny because this light was in the world so long ago, yet no one recognized Him. How sad. . . - to stare straight into the eyes of your masterpiece and have it turn it's back on you and say it doesn't love you. I say 'Him' because the light is living.. He is real.. He is life.. He is the Son of God - Jesus Christ. I am glad that He didn't give up on me when I turned my back on Him. He was beaten to the point where He no longer looked like a human being and bared MY punishment for MY sin - death. He's awesome though. His love conquered death and he came looking for me. He grabbed me by the hand as I stumbled in the darkness and He drew me close to Him. Immediately His light shone on me and He said, "You are mine." I struggled with Him and tried to get away - I didn't understand His love. Yet he held me even closer and said, "You are mine and I love you." My heart literally melted away as I stared into the deep, fiery eyes of my Maker the very first time I was introduced to Love.

[This scripture was in my mind as I wrote this:

Romans 12:2 (King James Version)

 ²And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God.]