School Ministry, Wife & Mother

This is an update on my life. I came to two realizations both today and yesterday. The first realization came yesterday. Weirdly enough, I was in a bathroom stall when it happened and it was right after my friend and I just finished praying for a couple girls. I realized that I am literally a part of a school ministry!  o_O I definitely did not see this coming, but it happened. God roped me into His plans hard but hey, All Glory To God! Leadership is foreign to me. Well I should say, being a good leader is foreign to me. I find it a challenge to take on the responsibilities of my own life so how will I manage with the lives of God's precious children? Therefore, I have decided to hand over all responsibilities to God. My leader once told me, If you are doing God's will, your plans will succeed and all Glory will go to God but, if you are doing your own will, regardless of how noble it may be, your plans will fail and it will be your own fault and not God's.  I intend to take that to heart. I believe this ministry is God's will and therefore he is in control of it's success. I view myself and the other prayer warriors as a small squad in a huge army with God as our leader. We are being trained for war!

The second realization occured while I was driving to school this morning. It was more of a wide-eyed blank stare moment when a thought of my future came to mind. I saw myself 5 years in the future being a wife and a mother of my first child. o_O That thought alone is totally insane. 7 months ago my 5 year plan looked more like, moving out of my parents house, living in a Spanish-speaking country and living a care-free make-belief life. My mindset is totally different and it's shocking to see such a drastic change in myself. Could that really be me in 5 years? Wife and mother? I'll be no older than 25. I am scared to say that I am ready.. but I somehow believe I am. Sure there are some kinks I have to work out in my life, but I'm almost looking forward to my future. God has planned out so many treats for me to find along the way. I'll let you know how it goes!